I smiled at the speech therapist working with Thomas and wondered why she would say such nice things after an hour of comedic faux pas. Did she not notice that dishes were piled in the sink (buying a mower at 5pm, fixing dinner at 6 pm, homework and wrestling at 7pm, bedtime routine dragging from 8-9pm, running speed work at 9:30pm, turning sprinklers and well pump on at 11pm, grocery shopping at Albertsons until midnight...no reason I didn't get them done!), did it escape her eye when Gideon pulled out the entire carton of eggs in the kitchen and drop them, did she not internally giggle when the door bell rang and three kids fought tooth and nail to see who could answer it first, did she ignore the cute daughter of mine who was removing all of the cushions from the couch to start the cannon ball game off the furniture?
I think there must come an age or stage of development in a persons life where you recognize something refreshing and pure in the workings of little children that a mother cannot always recognize. I thought briefly about the embarrassing feelings that were erupting internally as my toddler was squealing over a shared toy car and realized that the speech therapist was not taking notes on my imperfect world rather probably noticing the good I was overlooking.
Eliza and Thomas briefly sat together in a big green chair and held hands. Gideon came up babbling Mama, throwing his arms around my neck and kissing me. Thomas answered every question with a smile on his face. His pleasant, happy countenance is very fun and contagious. All the kids were clean, combed hair, smelled good but most importantly obviously felt secure and loved. The speech therapist did not comment on the possibility of a family spread to thin for individual needs instead she recognized the abundant love that so often is due to supportive siblings and parents.
Well, at the very least, if this very kind woman didn't notice the positives that I needed to remind myself about, then at least she recognized the need for encouragement that all mothers appreciate. The eggs are cleaned up, the dishes are almost done, the children are playing together and I have much to be grateful for!
